Sunday, 28 November 2021

2020: A Summary

 Hello there! 

Well, 2020 was quite the unusual year. A global pandemic, everyone in their homes, Donald Trump becomes the first US president to get impeached twice... For a long time, I've been putting off this blog, because as I understand it, not much happened between March and September. But it's here at last!

I found a picture of the date surrounded by viruses, but it seemed a bit too topical.

January
January involved more mock exams. As per usual, I didn't do well. 
I also looked after Frodo and Sam! Only for a couple of days, though.
I remember that Covid-19 made its appearance in late January, early February. Though now I'm not so sure - apparently, the first case occurred in November 2019. Additionally, my mum had a bout of 'flu' in January, involving continuous coughing. So, who knows.

We live in a beautiful world

February
Now, February was an interesting month - Covid was becoming more prevalent. 
I also did a Biology Olympiad. I did reasonably well.
Another thing that happened was I attended a Laser Kombat event with an organisation called Oxfordshire Friends of the Young Deaf'; it was lots of fun.
My Sixth Form also had a Valentine's Ball Social, featuring the return of RELATIONSHIP BANDS!! ...I don't know why that's so exciting. I wore green, indicating single. A group of classmates were suitably impressed - evidently, they expected that I would hook up. My band colour didn't upgrade over the course of the evening, let's put it that way. I had to leave early, once again missing out on the final 15 minutes, because my sister wanted to leave early, and my parents didn't want to make multiple trips to the event to pick us up. Ah well - I finally featured in my selfies!
My dad was away for about half the month - he came back in March, just before Covid shut everything down. Talk about lucky!
Me and a good friend.
March
March really was a 'month of trials and tribulations'! Well, if you want to be slightly melodramatic. Covid was sweeping the globe, people were panicking, toilet paper supplies were at an all-time low. (Seriously, future historians are gonna look at that last one and say "No, that has to be made up!" And it really happened!)
Something that happened in March was my school's Christian Union did testimonies about their faith. The people who actually delivered testimonies were the leaders, one of their friends, and me. Due to a miscommunication, I gave my testimony to one of the leaders at church, assuming she'd bring it in on the day. She did not, as she assumed that I had a copy of my testimony. I didn't, meaning that I had to recite the thing from memory! It wasn't as bad as I expected, though.
Also, schools shut down at the end of the month. I finished my final year of secondary school three months earlier than I had intended. In a way, we came to the parting of the ways - this blog was always about my experience of Sixth Form.
Though I didn't quite finish school - I still had work to do, I just did it from home.

Some scenic woods. I took the picture for an Africa post.
April
I'm going to be honest: very little happened in April. I stayed home and worked, much like the rest of the world's population.
There are some details of things which would have happened in April on the calendar, such as visiting my godparents, but it's a while ago now, so I actually can't remember if those things happened. I took up jogging at one point. I also might have had asymptomatic coronavirus - my toes got really swollen and painful. Apparently, that's a symptom of coronavirus, in some cases.
Pets benefitted from lockdown, at least.
May
May was more of the same. New things, though - I started my short-lived series of reviews! I might continue them one day.
I would have had exams except they were cancelled.
Another thing was that Oreo was maybe born in May, though we aren't sure exactly when he was born.

This picture isn't from May, but it is hilarious, because Pippa looks so weirdly nervous about getting her picture taken.

June
June, the final gasp of exams! My final exam would have been Biology Paper 3 on the 15th.
I continued my short-lived review series, culminating in probably one of my favourite books, Never Let Me Go. I also started writing a series of blogs on life in Africa.
During June, I also started making preparations for university - mostly disabled student support stuff.

If you haven't read it yet, go read it!

July
In July, we welcomed Oreo into the family! When he was a small kitten, he was tiny! He was also quite shy - something which hasn't changed much. For the first month, he had to be kept separated from Pippin, as Pippin doesn't like cats much. It's a lurcher thing, apparently. They eventually became friends - the turning point was when Pippin came back from a long walk on the Cotswolds. Oreo escaped from upstairs and met Pippin for the first time; Pippin was so exhausted he basically went "Oh, you exist." We gave him a treat as a reward...except he was too tired to eat it! Though I think Oreo still felt slightly threatened by Pippin; if Pippin entered a room where Oreo was, Oreo would stand on two legs and whack him. Such a sweet kitten...
Something else that happened was I made a lot of Minicraft stuffed toys for family friends, including a tiger cub and a puppy for Neve and Huw. Uncle Will was the one who bought me and Karys our first kits - a tiger cub and a puppy.

Some of the toys I made
August
August was when I received my exam results. I did pretty well - I got an A in English Literature and Language, a B in History and a C in Biology.  The marks were based off my schoolwork over the previous 2 years. I got into Reading!
Will and Hel also visited in August; it was nice to see them. Something quite surprising was that Huw tripped over Pippin and he actually growled. At a two-year-old. I've trodden on him (by accident) many times, and elicited only a pained look of 'Why did you do that?' A toddler trips once and he goes 'DON'T do that!' In fairness, all he did was growl.

Tiny Ri-ri!

September
Well, here we are! Uni time! Though not quite yet - I only moved to Reading on the 20th. In early September, we went on holiday to a place in Shropshire called Jackfield Mills, with Granny, Tessa, great-aunt Sally and Pippa. It was a lot of fun. One of the highlights was probably the walking. Also, we went to the nearby town one day, and I ate one of the best pork pies I've ever had. On the same outing, I got a picture with the signatures of all the actors to play the Doctor so far, from a signature shop. Unfortunately, it's closed now.
I moved into my halls on the 20th; I found that nearly everybody else in my flat had already moved in.
That week, from the 20th to the 27th, was Freshers' Week. As might be expected, there were not many events. I did select my modules for the upcoming year, though! Autumn term was a module on immigration into Britain, a module on black history in relation to Britain, and a module on belief in the Middle Ages. Spring term was warfare in Early Modern Europe, Iran's relations with the West in the modern era, and the rise and fall of chivalry in the Medieval period. They were fun.

My parents and Pippin on a hill
October
October was fun, though it was mostly work. My parents visited half-way through, which was nice.
I joined multiple societies, including the Christian Union and the Science Fiction society. 
I also started making arrangements for housing for second year, with limited success at that time.
In addition to that, I started watching Avatar: The Last Airbender on Netflix. It's very good - I highly recommend it.
There are still squirrels! I also saw a cat on campus the other day.
November
My birth month, zodiac sign Scorpio. Or Sagittarius, if you're born after 22nd November. Happily, my birthday fell during Reading Week. Reading Week is a period where you don't have any seminars or lectures. Don't be deceived, though, it's not relaxation time; it's for preparing for assignments. I spent Reading Week with my family.
I also made more headway with finding a house - the freshers in CU created a Whatsapp group for house-hunting. Well, six or so of us did; over time, multiple people left, leaving just four. 
I found the Harris Garden - it's a hidden garden on the Whiteknights campus, There's a gravestone in the garden, belonging to somebody called Michael. It's not the grave of the founder of the garden; it's a mystery.

This is from a couple of years ago, but I like it.
December
Most of December was the Christmas holidays - my term finished around the 8th.
It was nice to be back home. Though I still had to do lots of work, including a 2,500-word essay for the start of term.
Pippin was happy to see me - it was nice to see him. I think Oreo was also happy to see me - it's harder to tell with him.
Of course, a second lockdown happened towards the end of the Christmas holidays, trapping me at home.
I don't really remember much else that happened in December. I got a nice hat, scarf and gloves for Christmas from Sarah; the hat had a torch in it! Unfortunately, the torch has broken off...
I don't really have many photos.

Overall, I don't think this was a fun year. I'm not sure it was fun for most people. Looking back, it already seems unreal - everything seems almost back to normal, in England at least. We already have lots of people out in public, albeit wearing masks in a lot of places. Of course, it's not the same everywhere - lots of places are still struggling.
Though a lot of other stuff happened in 2020, which I feel like Covid overshadowed. For instance, there were the Black Lives Matter protests in June; the protests suddenly erupted in response to George Floyd's death, lasted several months, then died down again. And I've seen barely anybody discussing the protests lately, even though the problems which prompted them are still ongoing. Like Covid, they came out of nowhere, had a big impact, then seemingly died down, except that unlike Covid, there's almost nobody talking about them. 
In August 2020, there was an explosion in Beirut which killed 218 people - I haven't seen much mention of that either. Covid has dominated the public consciousness, which is fair enough, given its global repercussions; but I feel like it's blinding us to other tragedies as well. Or maybe that's human nature - we only really care about something if it affects us. 

Covid affected all of us - every single human being alive was affected in some way by it. What I think would be really amazing is if we all accepted that, if we all treated one another as fellow humans. Even for a single day. The Christmas Armistice of 1914 was like that - thousands of soldiers, British, French, German, from opposite sides of the First World War, abandoned the fight and made peace with one another. Bound by a common faith, a common celebration of Christmas, they refused to fight. One day, 117 years ago, just a few thousand soldiers, and it's still remembered today. Imagine if that happened across the world - how much would change, even if it just lasted a day? 
I don't think that would be possible, sadly. But what we can do is be kind. So let's do that.

Tuesday, 23 November 2021

World Enough and Time/The Doctor Falls/Twice Upon a Time: To Be or Not To Be

 Hello!

The Doctor's latest regeneration - the first transition from male to female! The Doctor gets mortally wounded in The Doctor Falls, but The Doctor Falls is a follow-on from World Enough and Time. Twice Upon a Time is when the Doctor finally decides to go through with the regeneration, and The Woman who Fell to Earth is the new Doctor's adjustment period. Capaldi's final trilogy is a return to old patterns - it sees the return of the Mondasian Cybermen. And the First Doctor - well, we never saw where he went between leaving the Cybership and going to the TARDIS, nor was there much explanation for his cryptic statement that it was "far from being all over". Twice Upon a Time explains both these things - he went for a walk in the snow and accidentally bumped into his own future. As you do.

Going out with a bang, I guess
World Enough and Time
World Enough and Time starts with the Doctor - he stumbles out of the TARDIS into an arctic waste and starting to regenerate. Then it switches to earlier in time, with the TARDIS materialising on a spaceship stuck by a black hole. A partially-redeemed version of the Master, regenerated into a woman and calling herself Missy, is undergoing a test to determine how far she's been redeemed, with the Doctor's companions, Bill and Nardole, serving as her temporary companions while the Doctor monitors the situation. The sole person they encounter is pleased to see them...until he learns that Bill is a human. Apparently, there are creatures in the bowels of the ship which emerge and abduct the crew-members, but only if they detect human life-signs; the man is an alien. As the creatures arrive, the man panics and shoots Bill; the creatures take her (yeah, her) into the lifts, promising to mend her. It turns out that, several days ago, the ship nearly bumped into the black hole and some of the crew went to the bottom of the ship to activate the rear thrusters. They never came back, and over a matter of hours hundreds of new life-forms appeared. Over the next couple of days, more crew-members disappeared, abducted by the creatures. The Doctor explains - the gravitational pull of the black hole means time is moving slower at one end of the ship than at the other. The crew-members who went to the bottom of the ship got stuck down there, due to the time dilation; the new life-signs are their descendants, because while it's been a couple of days at the top, it's been closer to a couple of millennia at the bottom. After 10 minutes and three different explanations, the man still doesn't get it, so the Doctor just judo-flips him and climbs into the elevator with Missy and Nardole.
Bill, meanwhile, is operated on. She later meets Mr Razor, an employee of the hospital, and ends up working for the hospital with him, over time losing hope that the Doctor will ever turn up. Eventually, the chest-piece she received starts failing; she receives the 'full upgrade' to rectify the problem. This is a common thing in the bowels of the ship - surprisingly enough, such places are not good places to live. The people there are dying - so they must be 'upgraded' to survive.
The Doctor, Nardole and Missy arrive; the Doctor and Nardole head to the operating theatre while Missy finds out what its planet of origin is. She finds that the planet of origin is Mondas; she then encounters Razor, who turns out to be the Master - specifically, the Harold Saxon incarnation. Nardole and the Doctor, meanwhile, find a Mondasian Cyberman in a closet; it turns out to be Bill, upgraded into the first proper Cyberman.
Missy and Saxon Master either side of the unfortunate Bill


The Doctor Falls
The Doctor Falls starts with a scene of children in the countryside - it's still on the spaceship, it's a solar farm. One of the children notices the ground shaking; a shuttle emerges, nearly flattening her, then Bill appears, carrying an unconscious Doctor. Cut to a few hours previously - the Master and Missy, having sided with each other, are mocking the Doctor on top of the hospital, brainstorming ways to kill him. Just after the end of the previous episode, Missy hit the Doctor, knocking him onto a computer; Nardole, meanwhile, ran off. The Doctor wakes up eventually and bickers back and forth with the Masters; eventually, the Master notices that the Cybermen are coming after the Time Lords on the roof.
As it turns out, when the Doctor got smacked onto that computer, he took the opportunity to change the number of hearts the Cybermen scanned for to two. Missy knocks out her past self and Nardole turns up - he wasn't being cowardly, he was looking for shuttlecraft. He found one; the Masters get in. Before the Doctor can, he gets electrocuted by a Cyberman; Bill fries it, then grabs the ladder on the bottom of the shuttle. They escape to one of the solar farms...in the process nearly flattening Alit, the little girl. Two weeks later, Alit visits the barn (where Bill lives now), bringing her a mirror so she understands why people are scared enough to stick her in a barn. Kind, but perhaps thoughtless as well, as Bill has a freak-out over seeing a Cyber-face instead of her own. Bill retains her sense of self only because she refuses to acknowledge the truth of her situation - her mind acts as a perception filter, blocking out the truth.
At the same time, the residents of the solar farm are preparing for battle with the Cybermen - they will return eventually. The Doctor's plan is to repel the initial advance and trick the Cybermen into marshalling a military response - up till this point, it's just been raiding parties to kidnap children. The initial advance is successfully repelled, by triggering fuel lines under the soil to explode While the Cybermen are re-grouping, Nardole takes the evacuees through service tunnels to the lifts, so that they can escape to a solar farm five floors up. Just before the battle begins, the Masters sneak off, having no desire to risk their lives performing heroics; the Doctor, absolutely livid at this cowardice, rants to them that he's fighting the Cybermen because that's a good thing to do, and he will happily fight and die in the name of doing the right thing. He also demands that the Masters consider what they would fight and die for; unfortunately, he doesn't get through to them, and the Masters walk off, deciding that that decision can wait. Bill and the Doctor fight the Cybermen; the Masters, meanwhile, back-stab each other: Missy literally stabs the Saxon Master in the back, while he shoots her with a laser screwdriver. The Saxon Master heads into the lift to return to his TARDIS; Missy, meanwhile, dies properly, unable to regenerate. Eventually, the Doctor uses the sonic screwdriver to blow up the entire floor. After the explosion, Bill finds him and mourns, before being de-converted by Heather, a reality-warper from episode 1 of Series 10; she gets turned into a reality-warper as well. They both teleport the Doctor back to the TARDIS; Heather pilots the TARDIS away from the black hole, while Bill says her farewells. Bill and Heather depart to travel the universe, shortly before the Doctor resurrects, brought back to life by Bill's tears. He refuses to regenerate and stumbles out of the TARDIS...into the Antarctic.
This is the titular fall - mortally wounded, seconds before blowing up an entire floor of a spaceship. Epic way to go out, personally.
 
Twice Upon a Time
Twice Upon a Time begins with a recap of the previous episodes... the first three episodes of The Tenth Planet. It then shows the First Doctor, now played by David Bradley, walking to the TARDIS, stubbornly refusing to regenerate all the way. He encounters his own future - the two proceed to bicker, with the Twelfth Doctor demanding to know why the First won't regenerate. The argument is cut short when they encounter a World War 1 captain. He got plucked from his time and placed in a strange room, but then he landed in the South Pole when a "timeline error" occurred. A glass woman appears, and the Doctors hustle the Captain into the Twelfth Doctor's TARDIS. The Doctors are so busy bickering that they fail to notice the TARDIS being lifted into the air. It's delivered into the ominous-sounding Chamber of the Dead. The Chamber is inhabited by Testimony - which the glass woman calls "what awaits every person after death". She offers the Doctor the chance to meet with Bill one last time in exchange for the Captain; the Captain accepts the deal readily, much to the frustration of the Doctors. The two Doctors, Bill and the Captain escape onto the snow below, heading for the First Doctor's TARDIS - the aim is to find out who the glass woman was in life, and what Testimony is up to. For that, the Doctors head for the largest database in the universe, located at the centre of the universe. Once they get there, they learn that Testimony is completely benevolent - it's just a way to enable the testimony of the long dead to interact with the living populace. The Doctors accordingly agree to put the Captain back in his proper temporal place - though the Twelfth Doctor deliberately lands a few hours later, right before the Christmas Armistice, so the Captain survives. It also turns out that he's a Lethbridge-Stewart - an ancestor of the Brigadier! The Doctors say farewell; the First Doctor steps back into his TARDIS, taking it back to the South Pole and opening the doors for Ben and Polly before collapsing to the ground...

The Doctor - a crotchety old man with a fondness for black-and-white colour schemes

The Twelfth Doctor has one last chat with Bill; during this conversation, he says goodbye to Nardole and Clara, who were both collected by Testimony. (Nardole died of old age after the events of The Doctor Falls, Clara died a while before in circumstances I shan't reveal). He then returns to his TARDIS and regenerating. When the Doctor's finished regenerating, she gets chucked out of the TARDIS into mid-air, just before an explosion wrecks the console room. The TARDIS dematerialises.

Impeccable dress-sense...



Slightly less impeccable dress sense! 






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Overall, I really like the ending trilogy of Series 10. I particularly like the fact that the Doctor willingly gives his life to help protect people he barely knows - in some senses, it's the culmination of a character arc stretching from the First Doctor. The First Doctor allowed himself to be weakened to the point of regeneration to protect humanity from the Cybermen; the Twelfth Doctor actively fought the Cybermen just to buy time for some humans (or Mondasians) to escape. It's exemplified in the Doctor's speech to the Masters as they leave - he does what he does because it's the right thing to do, because it's kind; the speech perfectly encapsulates who the Doctor is. He's the man who protects, not for glory or to get back at someone, but because it's a good thing to do. This is also exemplified in the following episode - while Twelve is researching Testimony, Bill and One discuss his reasons for leaving Gallifrey. As it turns out, one reason he left was to find out how good triumphs over evil, despite the fact that evil is more likely to go to extremes to win. Bill realises something the Doctor hasn't over thousands of years. He's the reason good prevails over evil - a single man racing around the universe, helping people and inspiring them to do good themselves. It's also fitting that the first Doctor of the Doctor's second cycle, a grumpy old man, meets the first Doctor of the first cycle, a grumpy old man, after both have had a confrontation with the Cybermen. 

In some ways, the Twelfth Doctor's final episodes wrap up his entire tenure; at the start of that life, he was unsure of whether he was a good man or not. By the end, his declaration of his beliefs prove beyond doubt that he is a good man. Additionally, there is some irony in the fact that, in his first episode, he begged Clara to accept him; in his final episode, he rejects the idea that Bill is Bill, despite her attempts to make him accept her. He tries, desperately, to repair his friendship with Missy; back in Series 8, Missy's whole plan was an attempt to repair their friendship. Indeed, it's possible that his appeal to Missy is what drove her attempt to repair their friendship - he makes the appeal in front of the version of the Master immediately preceding Missy. Similarly, Missy shows noticeable signs of change - she's visibly conflicted during that speech, and gets her past self out of the way specifically with the intention of siding with the Doctor. Moreover, when Bill's been taken into the lift in World Enough and Time, Missy's almost as angry with the man who shot her as the Doctor is; she cares little for Bill, but is still angry for her, because she understands that the Doctor does care for her.

I feel like World Enough and Time/The Doctor Falls/Twice Upon a Time has a similar poignancy to The End of Time regarding loss and moving on. Both stories deal with death and loss, both feature the Doctor being unwilling to regenerate. However, while the Tenth Doctor was afraid of death, the Twelfth is tired of living - he describes a life as long as his as a battlefield, where everyone has fallen, including him. Specifically, the Doctor has grown tired of losing himself, in a way; every time he regenerates, he has to figure out what sort of person he is all over again. The Twelfth Doctor in particular struggled with figuring out what sort of person he was; he finally figured it out, and now it's time for him to re-discover himself again. Tying in with this battlefield statement, he's also tired of losing everybody he loves, tired of having to move on. What gives him the courage to embrace the post-regeneration period of discovery once more is meeting his original self, and being reminded that some things have remained consistent throughout the Doctor's lives; saying goodbye to his companions gives him the strength to continue living. Ultimately, he regenerates, stating that 'One more lifetime won't kill anybody.' Fittingly, he says goodbye to Bill, Nardole and Clara through Testimony, which was designed with the express purpose of allowing the living to find closure with their deceased loved ones. 

Just like with The End of Time, I find that there's something very relatable about the Doctor's fears. We all change, through our lives, and we don't know what we'll become. I'm terrified that, as I grow older, I'll do nothing with my life - I'll spend all day lazing around, isolated and alone, while everybody I know goes on to do amazing things, shape the world into a better place. It's not that I don't want the people I love to be successful if I'm not - I'd love for them to be successful, no matter what's going on with me. The thing I fear most is the possibility that I will waste the time that I have, rather than spending that time with my loved ones, or helping make the world a better place. Every day I live, every action I take brings me closer to that potential future, and I don't have the faintest idea how I'd prevent it from becoming reality; I have a constant concern that nothing I do will be enough to avert it. At the same time, it's only one possible future out of billions. Though I feel like it's not an uncommon fear - I once made a testimony at Christian Union at school expressing my fears for the future. During the course of the testimony, I noted that, from my perspective, the CU leaders knew what they planned on doing in life; their response was to emphatically shake their heads. On that note, as the Doctor demonstrates, deciding what you believe in, what you stand for, is a brilliant way of making a first step in establishing a direction in life.

Addressing the second part of the Doctor's fears - losing people; it's often difficult. I still miss Nana and great-uncle Stu, who died years ago. You know who else I still miss? Charlie - the dog I had when I was growing up. She died in roughly 2010, about 11 years ago now; in fact, given that she was born in 2006, she would be dead by now anyway. Even so, after all this time, I still wish I could see her, and Nana and great-uncle Stu, one last time, because that's how grief works. It doesn't go away, you just grow used to it; indeed, the Doctor says something similar. In a previous episode, after the death of someone he loved, the Doctor noted that the day you lose someone isn't the worst day of your life - it's every day they stay dead, every day that you live with the pain of losing them. It's especially difficult when you don't have closure - the reason Testimony existed was to give people that closure. A lot of people haven't been able to have that closure, myself included - Nana was essentially comatose the last time I saw her, and great-uncle Stu died in his sleep; I never had the opportunity to say goodbye to either of them. But I think we do have a form of comfort - our memories of those we loved. That's all Testimony is, really - memories, poured into glass robots. We carry those memories with us, wherever we go. The Second Doctor once said, while comforting a grieving companion, that he forgets the pain of losing those he loved, most of the time, but when he really wants to remember them, he does; he goes on to say that the same will happen for the person he's comforting. The Thirteenth Doctor, in her first episode, says something rather similar - she remembers what they would have said and done and thought, constantly. Though the pain diminishes, we never really forget the people we've loved. Albus Dumbledore says a similar thing: he says that those we love never truly leave us, and they show themselves when we have greatest need of them. Accordingly, like the Doctor, we can move on - not pretending the grief isn't there, but accepting its presence and honouring the memories of those we lost.
Overall, I would rate World Enough and Time 8/10, The Doctor Falls 9/10 and Twice Upon a Time 7/10.

Random observations:
-I will say, the sequence when Heather appears is a little bit out of nowhere - she hasn't appeared since episode 1 of Series 10, so the viewers probably wouldn't remember her.
-After shooting Missy, the Master answers the Doctor's question about whether he's considered how he'll die - he notes that the mutual backstab is where the Master was always headed.  He's right - the Master has been double-crossing and back-stabbing since their first appearance, so it is very fitting that they back-stab each other.
-Something else I really like is the bit where the Doctor proves how well he knows the Master. Acknowledging that he last saw him in the events of The End of Time, he predicts that the Master got kicked off Gallifrey, eventually got stuck on the ship, ruled over the people in the bowels of the ship until he got overthrown, then resorted to skulking around in disguise. He's evidently correct, as neither version of the Master corrects him on anything other than a trivial point about exactly how he left Gallifrey.
-At one point, Bill comes out as lesbian to the Doctor - it's a nice scene, especially because he had already guessed, so he ends up looking a bit confused that she's mentioning something they both know. It's particularly nice because other than the aforementioned confusion, he's completely accepting.
-On that note, the First Doctor says in Twice Upon A Time that he's had sex with women before, as part of a sexist joke about women being made out of glass. Bill says she's had sex with women, too - the Twelfth Doctor's smirk in response is glorious.
-Similarly, I like the Doctor's chill attitude towards Bill's cyber-conversion - neither he nor Nardole treat her as if she's lesser because of it. In particular, when Bill gets angry at the Doctor for leaving her for ten years, she blows up the door of the barn. Nardole, standing outside, simply notes that "somebody broke the barn", as if there's nothing unusual about that sort of occurrence.
-Another thing I quite like is the homage to Power of the Daleks - when the Doctor's regeneration is finished, a ring slips off her finger, just as the First Doctor's ring no longer fit after his regeneration. Additionally, the audience gets treated to a rotating view of the wrecked console room - just as the Doctor's perspective post-regeneration depicted the room spinning in Power of the Daleks.
-The novelisation of Twice Upon a Time adds another layer to the Twelfth Doctor's fear of regeneration - last time, he nuked a village and destroyed an entire Dalek fleet. He's worried about the regenerations getting stronger. Given what happens to the TARDIS when he regenerates, he might have had a point.
-Something which does irritate me - the First Doctor's confusion about the sonic screwdriver. Sonic screwdrivers are Time Lord technology - there's no reason for him to not know what they are. Though granted, the Twelfth Doctor is sporting sonic sunglasses at one point, which does partially justify the First Doctor's confusion.
-The Masters' interactions are quite fun - particularly, there's an interesting parallel with how multiple incarnation of the Doctor treat each other. The Doctors bicker, but ultimately get on quite well. There's no such self-respect for the Master - the Saxon Master willingly flirts with himself, apparently not registering Missy as the Master because she's female. Missy, meanwhile, willingly stabs her own past self, and earlier sided with the Doctor when he insulted Saxon Master's appearance. That's actually quite tragic, if you think about it.
-Something else I like is a scene in Twice upon a Time where Bill swears at the Twelfth Doctor for refusing to recognise her. The First Doctor overhears and threatens to spank her if she does it again (!) The Twelfth Doctor is understandably mortified, but Bill actually finds it quite amusing, expressing the wish that she and the Doctor will spend years laughing about the awkwardness of that moment. The Doctor's expression makes it clear that that's what he would like as well - part of him is desperately hoping that the Bill he sees is the real Bill, not a trick. It's a sweet moment which emphasises their bond.
-Immediately after regenerating, the first thing the Twelfth Doctor did was complain about the colour of his kidneys. Just before his regeneration, in Twice Upon A Time, he falls to the floor, clutching his abdomen - the kidneys have quit, evidently. Every time I watch that scene, I can't help but think about the fact that the Twelfth Doctor's loathsomely-coloured kidneys just quit on him. Who knows, maybe it was payback!
-One of my favourite scenes in the trilogy is at the beginning of World Enough and Time; Missy introduces herself as 'Doctor Who', rather than 'the Doctor', apparently to circumvent the whole situation where people ask 'Doctor who?' She then makes several rather dated pop-culture references, much to Bill's confusion. Another amusing aspect of this scene is the fact that Missy's been locked in a vault for decades - how does she even know those incredibly specific references?
-Regeneration count - electrocuted and shot by Cybermen (Twelfth to Thirteenth Doctor). 14th regeneration (second of second cycle).

Saturday, 20 November 2021

The Time of the Doctor/Deep Breath: A Cycle's Culmination

 Hello!

The Time of the Doctor followed on from The Day of the Doctor. It involved the return of the Time Lords, in a sense, as well as the reveal that the Doctor had exhausted his regenerations. The Time of the Doctor ends with the Doctor being granted a new cycle of regenerations by the Time Lords - though we don't actually know how many he has now. Deep Breath had the Twelfth Doctor suffering from major post-regeneration sickness - probably due in part to the new regeneration cycle.

Thirteenth regeneration!
The Time of the Doctor
The Time of the Doctor begins with a woman called Tasha Lem describing how a planet, called Trenzalore, began emitting a broadcast. Nobody could understand it, but everyone in the universe felt afraid anyway, and rushed to investigate. Tasha Lem got there first and put a forcefield around Trenzalore; she's the Mother Superious of a giant flying church. All the Doctor's enemies are there - though if everyone in the universe is there, it stands to reason that there's plenty of people who would side with the Doctor as well. The Doctor's also poking around; he's picked up a new companion, a cyber-head called Handles. Clara's still travelling with him, just not on that specific occasion. He's arranged a meeting with Tasha in order to go onto Trenzalore; before he goes to the meeting, he picks Clara up from Christmas dinner with her family. They get to the surface of Trenzalore and find the source of the transmission in a tower in a town called Christmas. The transmission is coming from the Time Lords - the plan to save Gallifrey in Day of the Doctor worked. They're asking the question "Doctor who?". It's a safe-word - only the Doctor and his allies know his name, so if somebody answers the question, it's obviously the Doctor, sending the signal that it's safe to return to the main universe. Of course, if the Time Lords emerged, the Time War would just begin anew; for that reason, the Doctor sends Clara away, then spends the next few centuries protecting Christmas from attackers. 300 years later, the TARDIS returns...with Clara hanging onto the door. She heard it dematerialising and hitched a ride, necessitating a slow journey through the time vortex to protect Clara from dying. The Doctor and Clara have a discussion, during which it is revealed that he's used up all his regenerations; he then sneakily drops her off at home again and returns to Trenzalore. Over the next six hundred years, he fights a full-on war against all his oldest enemies. Eventually, it's down to him and the Daleks, with the Doctor dying of old age; Tasha travels to the 21st Century in the TARDIS to pick Clara up again, so she can say goodbye. She greets the Doctor, now an elderly man, as he shuffles up the bell tower to wait for death; Clara, meanwhile, pleads with the Time Lords to help him. They oblige by providing the Doctor with a whole new set of regenerations; he then uses the energy from the first one to blow up a Dalek fleet, along with the town of Christmas. Clara and the townspeople survive by hiding in the basement of the clock tower. The Doctor then returns to the TARDIS, changing into new clothes just to regenerate, hallucinates Amy Pond, then regenerates at last. The first thing the Twelfth Doctor does is complain about the colour of his kidneys, followed by forgetting how to fly the TARDIS. Clara's reaction to this is priceless, as one might expect.
A crack in the wall, guarded by a now elderly Doctor. The crack is a crack in reality, with Gallifrey on the other side.


Deep Breath
Deep Breath starts with a dinosaur...in London, in the 19th century. Like The Christmas Invasion, it features the return of characters who were prominent during the previous Doctor's era - the characters in question are Madam Vastra (a Silurian), her wife Jenny, and Strax their Sontaran butler. Sontarans are a clone race, the 'perfect warriors'. Sontarans are enemies of the Doctor, first introduced in the Third Doctor's era; Strax, however, is a willing ally of the Doctor. The Silurians were the previous inhabitants of Earth - they learned of a coming catastrophe and went into suspended animation to wait it out. The  crisis passed, but they didn't wake, giving humans time to evolve and take over; over time, small groups have periodically woken up and disagreed with the new management. Madam Vastra woke up in the Victorian era, where she found that human construction workers had accidentally annihilated her family; she started eating construction workers as revenge. The Ninth Doctor found her and persuaded her to stop killing them, though this occurred off-screen - she first appeared on TV in the Eleventh Doctor's era. Jenny, meanwhile, is an ordinary human. Though given her wife's a lizard-person from the dawn of time and her butler's a disgraced alien clone warrior, maybe not that ordinary.
Left to right - Strax, Jenny and Vastra

Madam Vastra is called to investigate the dinosaur; Jenny quickly deduces that it's choking on something. That something is the TARDIS - during the end of The Time of the Doctor, the Doctor crashed it into a dinosaur's throat, tried to escape and took the poor thing with it. The dinosaur spits out the TARDIS; the Doctor soon emerges, very confused. Once the Doctor's been taken to Vastra's house, he quickly falls asleep...though Vastra helps by psychically knocking him out. He wakes up in the night and escapes from the house, making his way to the Thames, where the dinosaur is still roaring its displeasure at its new home; as the Doctor watches, it gets burned to death. By the morning, he still has not returned to Madame Vastra's house; Clara deduces his location through newspaper adverts. Clara reunites with him at a fancy restaurant, finding in the process that he has obtained a new outfit from a tramp. He and Clara quickly realise that there's something very strange about the other patrons of the restaurant - they aren't eating or breathing. It turns out that the other patrons are robots; a spaceship staffed by robots from the far future crashed in Earth's past, millions of years ago. Throughout these long years, they've been rebuilding themselves out of spare parts - human and animal; they were responsible for the death of the dinosaur. Vastra, Jenny and Strax lead an assault on the droids, while the Doctor pursues the main droid - the command node. The command node flies the restaurant into the air, suspended from a hot air balloon made out of skin! The Doctor and the command node tussle, which culminates in the command node falling and dying, resulting in the deactivation of the other droids. At the end, the Doctor and Clara have an emotional confrontation in modern Glasgow, where the Doctor begs Clara to recognise that he is the Doctor, making Clara the first companion since Ben, in the First Doctor's time, to straight-up reject the idea that the new Doctor is the same man as the old one. Technically Rose also struggled to accept the new Doctor - but she accepted that it was him within about ten minutes of the regeneration.
End of one cycle...










Beginning of another!


Overall, I quite enjoyed The Time of the Doctor. I do think it was a bit more rushed than The End of Time, but it's still a fitting send-off for the Eleventh Doctor. For one, the First Doctor started running from Gallifrey; at the end of his cycle, the Doctor stays still, in one place, for centuries, to protect others. Fittingly, by the end, the Eleventh Doctor looks quite like the First.  Also, the music from the Tenth Doctor's sacrifice plays again when Clara reunites with the elderly Doctor; while in The End of Time, it represents the Tenth Doctor's potential future fading away, I feel like here it represents all the moments the Eleventh Doctor has lived, fading into the past. Indeed, given that without Clara's intervention the Doctor would have died fully, it feels like all the moments the Doctor's lived, across all his lives, fading away. It's also fitting given how the Doctor's just come off the events of The Day of the Doctor.  He's just experienced the final battle of the Time War, three times over; now, he wages a millennium-long campaign to prevent the war from breaking out anew. Additionally, it's interesting how the Time War has almost overshadowed the Doctor's entire regeneration cycle. It was his first encounters with the Daleks, in his first and second lifetimes, which made them aware of life beyond Skaro and encouraged them to develop inter-stellar travel. In his fourth and seventh incarnations, he took actions which (apparently) contributed to the increasing tensions between the Daleks and the Time Lords: being sent on a mission to wipe the Daleks out at their creation by the Time Lords and baiting the Daleks into destroying Skaro, respectively. The Eighth Doctor's life was ended because of the Time War and the War Doctor fought in it; the Ninth, Tenth and Eleventh Doctors were continually haunted by what they did in the war. It's therefore fitting that the Eleventh Doctor's life culminates in him preventing a fresh outbreak of the war.

I quite like Deep Breath as well; my favourite thing about the episode is Peter Capaldi as the Doctor. Second is the Doctor and Clara's interactions - Capaldi and Coleman (Clara's actress) play off each other very well, creating effective banter. It's also effective at the end - the Doctor is hurt that Clara refuses to recognise him. Clara, meanwhile, feels abandoned by the Eleventh Doctor being replaced by a stranger. While I dislike how stubborn she is on that front, it would be wrong to criticise the episode for a genuinely good sub-plot where Clara struggles to accept the new Doctor. Indeed, she has a valid point - on some level, the Doctor is no longer the man Clara knew; that's the nature of regeneration. At the same time, the Doctor is right to feel hurt by her rejection - especially when the Eleventh Doctor, right before his regeneration, phones Clara, telling her to stick by the new Doctor. The Twelfth Doctor then, in an attempt to persuade Clara, repeats back to her what his past self said...and Clara's immediate response is to assume that he was eavesdropping, highlighting just how much she fails to recognise the new Doctor. On the other hand, when Clara does come round, she just needs to look at the Doctor to recognise him, despite the difference in appearance between the Eleventh and Twelfth Doctors. It leads to a pleasant sequence where Clara, delighted to have realised that the Doctor is still the same person, hugs him. The Doctor grumbles that he's no longer a hugging person, but he's quite obviously just as overjoyed that Clara's accepted him.

However, a major problem with the episode is Madam Vastra's characterisation. For one, after incapacitating the Doctor, she calls men 'monkeys'; it's unnecessarily demeaning of men. From this scene, she is evidently someone who finds it perfectly acceptable to mock her delirious and dazed friend, attributing his confused state (and subsequent gullibility) to his gender, rather than the difficult and agonising process of dying and coming back that he just went through. Moreover, it's not a case of not being aware of regeneration - Vastra first met the Doctor when he was the Ninth Doctor. She's fully aware of regeneration and its effects, and still mocks the Doctor for his confusion. Additionally, various lines in the previous episode suggest that this delirium and confusion was, in part, there before the regeneration - in other words, the Eleventh Doctor was going senile, and this carried through to the start of the Twelfth Doctor's life. So Vastra's mocking the Doctor for losing his mental faculties due to old age - some friend! I especially dislike this because I had to watch Nana go through a similar decline - the Doctor's confusion reminds me of Nana's confusion. Seeing Vastra make fun of that confusion...it's disgustingly callous, especially as she's supposed to be someone the Doctor can rely on.

Moreover, Madam Vastra's relationship with Jenny is also demeaning - when Vastra makes that joke, Jenny's initially under the impression that it's another demeaning nickname for humans in general. This implies that it's common for Vastra to insult her wife's species, which itself implies a rather verbally abusive dynamic between the two. Indeed, this implication is made explicit by Vastra's explanation - 'People are apes. Men are monkeys'. Despite her wife's obvious discomfort with Vastra calling people apes, she still does it. Additionally, there's a power imbalance in their relationship as well. In public, Jenny pretends to be Vastra's servant - this makes sense, given that two women married to each other, in the Victorian age, would not be taken well. However, she also appears to be her wife's servant in private; Jenny herself notes that there's a rather suspicious coincidence behind the fact that she's still the one serving tea in private. Between that and Vastra's proclivity towards insulting Jenny's species, their relationship doesn't come across as particularly healthy. This isn't really addressed in the episode - indeed, this episode is the last we see of them. 

It's actually quite disappointing, as Jenny and Vastra are the only recurring LGBT+ couple to appear in the series thus far...and not only is their relationship somewhat unhealthy, but they're also never even seen again after this episode, so there's no chance of depicting them develop a healthier relationship. It's especially unfortunate both for Vastra and her relationship with her wife because previous episodes had depicted Vastra as being compassionate and moral, kind to her friends, with a few moments of insensitivity; previous episodes depicted her relationship with Jenny as overall healthy, and pretty sweet. A previous episode, in which Jenny died temporarily, had Vastra absolutely distraught; after reviving Jenny, Strax commented that the heart is a simple organ. Vastra's response that she has not found it to be simple indicates how deeply she cares for Jenny; her love for Jenny, by that episode, had enabled her to (mostly) overcome her prejudice against humans. Additionally, another episode had Vastra looking after the Doctor while he was suffering from depression - and she was nothing but kind and supportive. Here, her character and her relationship with Jenny get butchered in the name of a few moments of cheap comedy. It's tragic, and in my mind, it really brings down an otherwise great episode.
Overall, I'd give The Time of the Doctor 8/10 and Deep Breath 5/10.

Random observations:
-The Time of the Doctor clashes with an earlier episode, where the Doctor had died on Trenzalore. Or kind of, anyway - I like to think that a future final incarnation might have returned to Trenzalore to die there, with his TARDIS changing to match the Eleventh Doctor's TARDIS, resulting in the past version of the Doctor and Clara assuming that it was the Eleventh Doctor who died on Trenzalore.
-Both Matt Smith and Karen Gillan, who played Amy, were wearing wigs - they were doing other roles at the same time, which necessitated their heads be bald.
-The actual regeneration is a short, quick blur, which has attracted considerable mockery. But the regeneration had already started, and the Doctor used a lot of energy destroying the Dalek fleet. It's entirely possible that the actual transition was so quick because there really wasn't much energy left for that regeneration, most of it having gone into nuking Christmas.
-One of my favourite scenes in Deep Breath is the sequence where Clara and the Doctor reunite at the restaurant. During the course of the conversation, it is revealed that neither of them placed the adverts which led them to each other; it also turns out that the advert leading the Doctor to Clara referred to a 'needy egomaniac'. Clara gets side-tracked by the egomania comment, to which the Doctor says that the conversation is about the adverts, not the fact that the advert leading the Doctor to Clara implicitly called her an egomaniac. Clara then literally says "Nothing is more important than my egomania!" Accordingly, the Doctor promptly mocks her for that.
-Clara, Rose and Sarah-Jane may jointly hold the record for meeting the Doctor during his regeneration the most times: Sarah-Jane witnessed the Third Doctor's regeneration, interacted with the Tenth Doctor shortly before his aborted regeneration (and after), and saw him shortly before his regeneration in The End of Time. Clara interacted with the War Doctor shortly before his regeneration, witnessed the Eleventh Doctor's regeneration, and saw the Twelfth Doctor shortly before his regeneration. Rose, meanwhile, witnessed two regenerations (Nine to Ten and the aborted regeneration), and a past version of her was the last person to see the Tenth Doctor before his regeneration into the Eleventh Doctor.
-Regeneration count - extreme old age (Eleventh to Twelfth Doctor). New cycle, 13th regeneration.

Thursday, 11 November 2021

The End of Time/The Eleventh Hour: Renewal

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The End of Time was the departure of the Tenth Doctor; it featured the Master. It also features the Time Lords! The Doctor's companion for the two-parter was Donna Noble's grandfather, Wilfred Mott. This episode features the Doctor's (presumed) final regeneration - though  I must clarify: this is not the final post, even though the regeneration count at the bottom of the post says 0 regenerations remaining. The Doctor gained new regenerations at the end of the Eleventh Doctor's life. The Eleventh Hour is another jumping-off point for new viewers - new companion, new Doctor. That's ironic, considering how complicated the Eleventh Doctor's era got by the end. 

The Master was plagued with drumbeats his whole life, driving him insane. Indeed, there's a scene in The End of Time part 1 where the Master initiates telepathic contact with the Doctor, letting him hear the drums; the Doctor can't stand more than a few repetitions before jerking back in horror. The Master can't escape - no wonder he went insane! It's revealed in this episode that the drumbeat was implanted by the Time Lords when the Master was a boy, in order to find a way out of the Time War.
The Time War drove the Time Lords to desperation - they resurrected many deceased Time Lords to fight in the war, including their founder, Rassilon. This also includes the Master, whose last scene prior to the Revival saw him plunging into the Eye of Harmony in the TV Movie.

What I don't understand is why he had to regenerate facing the console like that, rather than hiding in a corner like last time.
The End of Time Part 1
The End of Time starts with the Doctor, who has been summoned to the Ood-sphere, the dwelling-place of the Ood, a race of three-brained psychic aliens. They have a brain in their heads like us, a second brain which they carry in their hands, and a hive-brain connecting the entire race. This brain, as it happens, is uneasy; the Ood have been having nightmares of the Master; this has been happening across the universe as well. They show the Doctor the dreams and visions of the 21st century; he in turn provides context on the Master. He escaped the Time War and used Time Lord technology to re-write his biology and become human, storing his true identity and Time Lord essence in a watch. When the Doctor, Martha Jones and Captain Jack met his human self at the end of the universe in the finale of Series 3, Martha unintentionally drew his attention to the watch, he opened it and remembered his true identity. He stole the Doctor's TARDIS and returned to Earth in the 21st century, where he seduced a woman called Lucy, and became Prime Minister. He took over the Earth, cannibalising the TARDIS to create a Paradox Machine, but the Doctor reversed everything he'd done. When everything was restored, Lucy shot the Master, who refused to regenerate; the Doctor cremated him. Amusingly, the Ood then note - from his own recollection, no less - that he missed something: a ring, containing the Master's essence, was not burned, it survived. Lucy, meanwhile, went to prison - presumably for murder.

Ood Sigma - he's the leader of the Ood.

In the 21st century, Lucy is escorted from her prison cell; it turns out that the Master had a cult going, and also foresaw his own death; he created a resurrection ritual, to be used in the event of his death. The cult prepares the potion and takes a biometrical signature from Lucy - as she kissed the Master, she carries his 'imprint'. The Master resurrects, though not before Lucy splashes an antidote to the 'potions of life' on him, causing the room to explode. The Doctor rushes to Earth, but arrives too late. He starts looking for the Master; meanwhile, Wilfred gathers his friends to look for the Doctor. The Doctor catches up to the Master, but coincidentally gets intercepted by Wilf and his friends, enabling the Master to escape. The Doctor and Wilf chat, during which it's mentioned that the Doctor's heard a prophecy of his death: "He will knock four times." Donna also comes up during the conversation; she's getting married, though she and her fiancĂ© are not doing well, financially. The Doctor and Wilf part ways; later that night, the Doctor finds the Master again. The Master then gets abducted by Joshua Naismith, a billionaire who has come into possession of alien technology and wants it repaired. He knows, somehow, that the Master is the sort of person who could fix it. The Doctor recruits Wilf to help him find the Master; unbeknownst to the Doctor, he's been recruited by another Time Lord as well: a mysterious woman in white, telling him to retrieve his old service pistol. She wants him to protect the Doctor. By coincidence, Donna gave Wilf a book on Naismith for Christmas; the Doctor theorises that her Time Lord consciousness is still active, deep within her subconscious. They reach the Naismith mansion and meet Rossiter and Addams, two aliens dispatched to retrieve the alien technology, called an Immortality Gate. As for why it's called that? It mends whole planets, by transmitting a biological and mental template across an entire population. The Doctor, upon hearing this, races for the room where the Gate is, but he's too slow; the Master, having fixed the machine, jumps in, transmitting his body and mind across the entire human population of Earth. The episode ends with only five non-Masters on the planet - the Doctor, Rossiter and Addams, Donna, and Wilf; Wilf escaped by being in the power booth for the Gate. The other four, meanwhile, are not human - the template was set to human. 
The Master post-resurrection
The End of Time Part 2
The second part starts with the Time Lords planning a means of escaping the Time War, which is destroying all of reality. It cuts to the Master's victory, with him effortlessly gaining control of every political and military institution in the world. The Doctor and Wilf are held prisoner; after a brief discussion about, among other things, the biological metacrisis which prevented Donna from being changed, they're rescued by Rossiter and Addams and teleported onto their ship. The Doctor immediately switches the ship off to prevent the Master finding them. The Time Lords start the plan - transmitting a four-beat signal back through time into the Master's head. At the same time, the Masters meditate on the source of the rhythm; this enables the Time Lords to establish a connection from within the Time Lock to Earth. Rassilon sends a white-point star along the connection - a white-point star is a type of diamond found only on Gallifrey. The diamond lands near the Naismith mansion; the Masters begin wiring it into the Immortality Gate to amplify and boost the connection. The original Master, meanwhile, gloats about the discovery of the diamond to the Doctor - on an open channel, he hasn't actually discovered the spaceship. The Doctor realises the severity of the situation upon learning that the Time Lords are returning. Wilf gives the Doctor his service pistol...and the Doctor accepts, despite being 'the man who abhors weapons'. That's how serious the situation is. Indeed, the Time Lords' plan is to bring Gallifrey itself through the connection as well, tearing apart the Time Vortex and destroying the universe; the Time Lords would escape the cataclysm by becoming beings of pure consciousness. Yeah...the Doctor's panic is entirely  justified. He flies the spaceship to the Naismith mansion, jumps out, and crashes through the glass ceiling of the mansion. Five seconds too late - the vanguard of the Time Lords has arrived. Rassilon undoes the Master's work with a flick of the wrist, restoring humanity to their true form; Wilf, meanwhile, persuades Rossiter and Addams to land the ship and let him go to the Doctor. He enters the power booth for the Gate, releasing a technician in the process. The Doctor, after some prevaricating, chooses to shoot the white-point star, shattering the connection and sending the Time Lords back into the Time War; the Master goes with them, wanting revenge for driving him insane, which is fair. Apparently, according to expanded universe materials, he shoved white-point stars down Rassilon's throat until he regenerated - ouch!

Rassilon. Apparently, that glowy gauntlet of his forces Time Lords to burn through all their regenerations!

The Doctor, meanwhile, faces the true meaning of the prophecy of his death: "He will knock four times". Not the Master, not Rassilon...Wilfred, stuck in a box which is about to release 50,000 rads of radiation energy. The Doctor throws a tantrum, but chooses to sacrifice himself anyway...he steps into the other booth and presses the button, allowing Wilf to exit while the Doctor is bombarded with energy. He gets up again, which is a surprise to Wilf, but he heals the injuries sustained from crashing through a glass ceiling - proof that the regeneration has started. After dropping Wilf off at home, he makes the cryptic remark that Wilf will see him one last time; the Doctor then departs to collect his reward. This comes in the form of visiting his companions - every companion of the Revival era. Apparently, he also visited every companion he'd ever had, both Classic Era and Revival. It makes sense in retrospect - during regenerations, there's a period called State of Grace, where the regenerating Time Lord can hold it off for a time. Next time the Doctor dies, he won't (or so he believes) be regenerating, so he won't have that State of Grace - he won't have time to say goodbye. In fairness, next time he dies, he is a bit too busy in any case. He visits Wilf and Sylvia that one last time, at Donna's wedding; he gives them a wedding present for Donna - a winning lottery ticket. His last visit is to Rose Tyler - he goes back to the first of January, 2005, to visit a past version of her. He then stumbles to the TARDIS to die; the Ood sing to him, giving him the strength to return to the TARDIS. The Doctor takes it into orbit around Earth and finally regenerates, causing a massive explosion. The Eleventh Doctor emerges from the flames screaming, then immediately looks surprised at how loud he was screaming.

"I don't want to go!"






"Geronimo" - while the TARDIS is crashing!














The Eleventh Hour
The Eleventh Hour starts with the Doctor reaping the rewards of letting loose directly onto the console - the TARDIS starts crashing, nearly throwing him out in the process. He climbs back in, but not before nearly receiving an impromptu castration courtesy Big Ben's spike. Ouch. Though as I say, he didn't actually suffer that - he got back in the TARDIS just in time. It switches to new companion Amelia Pond praying...to Santa, of all people, about a crack in her wall - she can hear voices on the other side. The TARDIS lands on Amelia's shed; the Doctor climbs out and introduces himself to Amelia. The Doctor eats his way through a kitchen, then investigates the crack, discovering a prison on the other side, and learning that a prisoner has escaped. Then the TARDIS engines start phasing, necessitating the Doctor making a five-minute jump into the future. It's meant to be five minutes, but it ends up being twelve years. Amy is not happy to see him once they reunite. Meanwhile, the escaped prisoner's alien captors have caught up with it and are threatening to incinerate the 'human residence' unless it vacates. Said residence being the entire Earth. The Doctor persuades Amy to believe him until he's solved the crisis; he then uses his sonic screwdriver to attract the aliens, the Atraxi, to Amy's town, by boosting all the lights, engines, alarms, et cetera in the area, demonstrating that there's alien technology in the vicinity. Unfortunately, the sonic explodes half-way through. He comes up with plan B - create a computer virus which will, when activated, cause every digital clock in the world to display the number zero. The Atraxi, noticing such alien technology, will trace the virus to the phone the Doctor 'borrowed' to create the virus; said phone will be on the Doctor's person, and the Doctor will hopefully have found the prisoner by that point. That's exactly what happens, and the Atraxi find and execute the prisoner. They leave, but the Doctor calls them back and tells them off for not realising Earth was defended. He then realises the TARDIS has finished repairing itself and dashes off to do a test-run; he comes back to Amy to pick her up two years later - he had previously offered to take her on as companion, which she accepted.

Amy and her boyfriend Rory.

Overall, I really enjoyed The End of Time; it's a poignant and fitting final episode for the Tenth Doctor. Indeed, just as he was born from an encounter with one of the primary combatants of the Time War, he died after an encounter with the other primary combatant - the Time Lords. It's also interesting in that it's one of the only regeneration episodes to unambiguously depict regeneration as death - and the Doctor is afraid of dying. Indeed, when the topic comes up in his discussion with Wilf, the Doctor looks on the edge of tears. A lot of people say the Tenth Doctor was unnecessarily whiny about the whole thing; given that no other Time Lord in the entire show reacts the same way, not even the Eleventh Doctor, approaching his final death, that's not unfair. However, I think the reason why it hits home so hard for the Doctor isn't just because he's coming close to his final death, it's because he, in that body, has died before - a final death. The Seventh and Eighth Doctors did die, but they were resurrected. The Tenth Doctor has died permanently, or a version of him has. In Series 3, he hid from pursuers using the same technology the Master used - he became an ordinary human being, called John Smith. Eventually, the pursuers caught up with him and wanted him to change back, so they could steal the Doctor's body and obtain immortality. To force his - and the Doctor's - hand, they started bombing an innocent village; the Doctor's companion, Martha, pleaded with John to become the Doctor again. In the end he did; he died, not in the way Time Lords do when they regenerate. He simply ceased to exist. And the Doctor remembers it. He fears that death - it terrifies him. Every regeneration brings the Doctor closer to that final death, and he only has one more re-do as of The End of Time. Is it so surprising, therefore, that he's unwilling to die?

Equally, however, the Doctor doesn't flinch away from the prospect of death. He literally jumps out of a spaceship to stop the Time Lords; later, when Rassilon prepares to blast him for foiling his plot, the Doctor calmly accepts his fate - his response to Rassilon declaring that the Doctor will die with him is a simple 'I know.' Additionally, when Wilf gets trapped, the Tenth Doctor willingly sacrifices his last regeneration to save him.  Despite his fear of death, he willingly brings himself closer to it; in the process, he proves himself incredibly brave. This is emphasised by his actions in the second part; he's spent the previous part fearful, anxious, sombre, but as he approaches the final battle, all that fear and despair disappears, replaced by calm acceptance and fierce determination. It makes his tantrum later more tragic, more real - he built up all that courage, believing he'd die to an enemy, and he learns that his death comes at the hands of a friend instead, and his resolve just shatters. In spite of that, however, he gathers up his resolve one last time and saves Wilf's life, ending his own in the process. The soundtrack that plays as the Doctor absorbs the radiation is poignant as well; it echoes the soundtrack used when the Doctor regenerated in Logopolis. In Logopolis, the Doctor's regeneration music evoked the seconds ticking away until the Fourth Doctor dies. In a similar fashion, the music which plays as the Tenth Doctor absorbs the radiation creates an impression of all the seconds the Tenth Doctor might have lived slipping away and fading. The Doctor's farewells are also poignant - his reward is to see his friends once more, alive and safe. He also finds closure with Joan Redfern, a nurse who John Smith fell in love with; her great-granddaughter found her diary in the attic and wrote a book about Joan's experiences with a man from beyond the stars. The Doctor turns up at the book-signing, having bought a copy; there's a bittersweet moment where her great-granddaughter recognises the Doctor as the man Joan fell in love with, prompted by the Doctor introducing himself as John Smith. She asks if he was happy in the end, and the Doctor just smiles sadly at her, like he's thinking "Well, that's the question, isn't it?", then walks away. It's a good way of emphasising that regeneration is an end, but not the end; the Doctor will continue living after this.

The Eleventh Hour, similarly, really hammers home this aspect of regeneration - it's a new beginning, a new life. Forgetting the weariness and despair of just a few hours ago, the Eleventh Doctor is happy. He's bouncing around, re-learning how to live, finding new friends and saving the day once more. It emphasises that regeneration is death, but it's also rebirth. This idea of rebirth and renewal extends itself to the TARDIS and the sonic screwdriver; both are trashed over the course of the episode. The TARDIS repairs and undergoes a renewal of its own, while the sonic is broken beyond repair and the Doctor is supplied with a new one at the end.  This also extends itself to the companions - as with Spearhead from Space and Rose, new companions join the Doctor. Indeed, Amy herself goes through a renewal of sorts - the Doctor failing to fulfil on his promise to return after five minutes leaves her cynical about the idea of time travel and aliens. By the end of the episode, she's renewed; the fact that the Doctor has returned at last has awoken her adventurous spirit. 

Indeed, in some senses, The Eleventh Hour captures the same light-hearted energy that Castrovalva does; The End of Time is high-stakes, emotional and hectic, with a rather sombre tone pervading it, just as Logopolis evoked a sense of world-weariness. The Eleventh Hour, on the other hand, is far more carefree; one example of this is the Doctor exploring his new taste-buds at the beginning. He eats his way through a kitchen, constantly contradicting previous requests he made, and, at one point, throws a plate of food outside and inexplicably yells at it to "stay out!". Eventually, the Doctor picks the strangest meal imaginable - fish fingers and custard! It's a scene primarily written to showcase Matt Smith's comedic skills; it also contrasts very sharply with the Tenth Doctor's doom-and-gloom mentality in the previous episode.  There are other similarly comedic moments throughout the episode, such as the Doctor and Amy bickering over her choice of job (kissogram), or when the alien prisoner shapeshifts to look like the Doctor...and the Doctor basically no-sells the prisoner's attempt to manipulate him, as he hasn't actually gotten a look at his new face yet, much to the confusion of all present. These moments contrast with the more serious atmosphere of The End of Time; it highlights the "new beginnings" element of the episode.

I feel like there's something poignant about the two (three?) episodes as a whole: suffering pain and loss, but seeing the positives in the loss, even when everything seems dark. The Tenth Doctor dies, but he dies knowing that his friends are safe, and they are happy. He dies knowing that his efforts to protect the universe, across all the Doctor's lifetimes, have not been in vain. The Doctor, meanwhile, gets a thirteenth chance, a new opportunity to live and be happy; indeed, he's so carried away with this new opportunity that he almost forgets the emotional and physical pain of his previous incarnation's last hours. There's also a strong theme of remembrance in the three episodes; for instance, the scene where the Doctor and the Master reminisce on their childhoods on Gallifrey, or the fact that Amy remembers the Doctor despite first meeting him when she was just seven years old. It's not just Amy that remembers him; one of Amy's friends meets the Doctor and immediately recognises him as Amy's Raggedy Doctor, despite only having heard stories of him.  Similarly, Joan Redfern's great-granddaughter recognises the Tenth Doctor as the man Joan fell in love with, despite having only read about him. Moreover, the Doctor, going into what he believes will be his final life, visits every companion he's had - including, as it later turns out, every companion from the Classic Era; as old as he is, he remembers every single companion he's ever had, and he takes the time to visit them one last time. Most poignantly as the Ood sing to the Doctor just before his regeneration, they tell him that, while the Tenth Doctor will die, and in time the Doctor will die permanently, the story of the Doctor will never be forgotten - he will be remembered forever.

Indeed, we do a similar thing, collectively, every year on the 11th of November - we remember those who fell in the World Wars; by remembering and honouring them, we ensure that they will never be forgotten. I feel like today's also a day for remembrance of everybody we've lost. I always find myself thinking about Nana and great-uncle Stu, both of whom died a few years ago. They both had a significant impact on my life - Nana inspired my love of cooking, and great-uncle Stu was like a grandfather to me. One piece of wisdom he passed on to me was that if you get repeatedly stung by stinging nettles, you eventually grow accustomed to the sensation, and it no longer hurts. It's trivial, but it's something I've always cherished, because it reminds me of him. Similarly, cooking and baking reminds me of Nana, and while she never got to see me take up cooking, I love cooking, in part because it reminds me of Nana. It's like Albus Dumbledore says to Harry in Prisoner of Azkaban: 'Your father is alive in you, Harry, and shows himself most plainly when you have need of him.' I find that comforting - the people we love never really leave us, they'll always be here in spirit and in memory. That's something to remember, today and every day - when we lose someone we love, they're never truly forgotten.
Overall, I would rate The End of Time 9/10 and The Eleventh Hour 8/10

Random observations:
-The Doctor attended Donna's wedding, though she didn't see him - he got her a winning lottery ticket (perks of time travel!) He paid for it by borrowing a pound off her father, who died before Series 4 - I like that the Doctor enabled her father to give his daughter a wedding gift, despite dying long before her wedding.
-Another nice thing The End of Time does is that it makes Sylvia a lot nicer - she's more polite to the Doctor, despite her dislike of him, and relieved to see her dad safe at the end. She's also delighted when she realises the Doctor got Donna a winning lottery ticket, thereby solving Donna's financial problems - just like the Sixth Doctor and Peri, despite her difficult relationship with Donna, she does care for her.
-One thing I don't like in The End of Time is when one of Wilf's friends slaps the Doctor's bum - he is clearly uncomfortable, but it's played for laughs.
-The Tenth Doctor gets some flak for holding in his regeneration; I don't think he did, though. Radiation poisoning takes a long time - hours - to kill humans; for Time Lords, it might be even longer; he's just waiting for the regeneration to start. The first sign is his skin repairing - skin is the first part of the body to break down after radiation exposure (think sunburn). From there, he's just waiting for the rest of his body to catch up.
-There's something poignant about the meeting between the Master and the Doctor half-way through Part 1. According to the Master, his father had estates - Time Lord aristocracy; given the Doctor's childhood friendship with him, the Doctor was presumably of a similar social status. They were both once elites of one of the most sophisticated races in the universe; by The End of Time, they're the only Time Lords left, homeless and crouching in the dust of a foreign planet. As the Master notes, how the mighty have fallen!
-I find Addams, one of the aliens, really annoying; the main reason why is the scene where the Doctor shuts off the power on the spaceship. He does it so the Master won't find them. A while later, Addams rants at him for essentially overreacting, noting that there's no missiles, no sign that the Master has found them. She skilfully ignores the fact that the Master hasn't found them because the Doctor switched everything off!
-The Eleventh Hour has lots of fun little inconsistencies, such as a disappeared mother who is around enough to carve faces onto apples, or a duck pond without ducks which Amy still recognises as a duck pond; these aren't continuity errors, they're foreshadowing of the Series 5 finale.
-The events of The Eleventh Hour happened in 2008 - why did the Tenth Doctor never notice the sun going funny for 20 minutes? Maybe he was away, and the Eleventh Doctor stopped by at UNIT to explain.
-I always find the "praying to Santa" thing a bit annoying - young Amelia is praying to Santa close to Easter - a time traditionally associated with the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ. So Amelia praying, at Easter, but not to the divine being traditionally associated with Easter, comes off as almost intentionally dismissive of Christianity.
-On the other hand, one of my favourite scenes in The Eleventh Hour is the Doctor's reaction to  learning that Amy's grown up to kiss people for a living - that is, he's rather critical of her job choices. It's hugely ironic that the man who ran away from his home planet and spent the next few millennia gladly flouting his people's principal laws is moralising over job choices, of all things. Apparently, to the Doctor, blatantly flouting your people's principal law is OK, but kissing people for a profession is not!
-Regeneration count - absorbed a lethal amount of radiation (Tenth to Eleventh Doctor). 0 of 12 regenerations remaining, cycle used up.